My Aching Heart

Today my heart was turned toward Uganda. I was outside in the early morning, watching the sun rise and the clouds turn pink... Hearing the cicadas and insects chirp... Feeling the humidity and heat... It made me imagine being in Uganda again-- and my soul longed to go back.

It actually made my heart ache.

I thought about this little child who may become my daughter or son. I thought about her/him waiting there-- hoping for a Mom and a Dad. I thought about her/him waking up to the same sounds I was experiencing-- and then having a hungry belly.

I want to go to her/him. I want her/him to find and have a family. And I want that for the other children there too.

And I long for truth and ethics and cases being clear and above board. I pray, " God, you know how much I want this. But I want your will to be done. And I want it to be ethical. Please don't let us adopt a child that should have stayed in Uganda because they truly have family to care for them."

I really don't know where the Lord will lead us eventually. I long for Uganda, but it may not be there. He knows.

I pray also for news, information, some form of update. SOON.

I still pray we can travel before the end of the year. As the weeks go by, it's hard to not doubt that possibility. There is still enough that needs to happen before traveling that it seems crazy to travel by then since we don't even have a referral yet.

I trust God. He knows what He is doing in Uganda. I pray all the time that He is watching over our future child, comforting them, giving them hope, showing them love, protecting them. He is able to place the lonely in families. He is able to move paperwork along. And He is sovereign to choose the exact timing of it all, and can prepare everything to happen in His timing. Lord, help me trust you more.

Comfort my aching heart.

P.S. I know I haven't posted in a while. There is not much to share. Our Dossier is in Uganda, but we are in the phase of just waiting for a referral or a child. We've had some indication that things are moving, but still not the news we long to hear yet. This is a tough phase!